Character Confession: Done Being Quiet

It’s Saturday, the day I spill it all. Okay, not really, but is the day I share my Character Confession.

I thought about speaking up, I did.

Then I thought, there is time, I’ll just wait.

But the feeling didn’t go away. In fact, it got worse.

Then I thought, I sure could use people praying for me.

Then I realized no one can pray for me if they don’t know.

So I’m ready to stop being so quiet.

On April 28 I’m going in for a laparoscopy.   At least that’s the plan.  The pelvic pain I experienced before my hysterectomy is back. My surgeon and I think it’s scar tissue, you’ll have that after a laparoscopy, wedge resection, 2 c-sections and a hysterectomy. A CT scan ruled out a hernia and kind of told us that it  most likely is scar tissue since that won’t show up on a CT.

April 28th will give the surgeon a chance to take a look see and hopefully cut what we’re believing is scar tissue out. I get the irony that I need surgery to get rid of scar tissue that is caused by surgery. I also get that the laparoscopy might not cut it (pun intended) so I gave consent that if he has to, my doctor can open me up.

I’m done being quiet on that, too.

I want the laparoscopy to be enough.  A full surgery means a longer recovery and I’ve been there and done that. I’m tired of going around the same mountain (Deuteronomy 3, I believe) and I’d like a new journey. One where I don’t have chronic pain and sleepless nights. I want little bags under my eyes because I’m almost 41, not because it’s my pain barometer.

So if you’d like to agree with me, I’m believing the laparoscopy is the instrument God will use to heal me from this and that scar tissue is the issue. That He will grant me favor and acceleration with the recovery and through it all, I will have peace. I will not fret about a long recovery and needing help.  I want to enjoy May days outside, not stuck in bed.

And that…is my confession. Proclamation.

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