The Hourly Taunts

Yesterday I shared over at Christians Read that years ago I struggled with what I knew was a call on my life. It’s not only come to pass, it’s more specific.

I gave advice on how to avoid taking over and failing because we are not equipped.

What I didn’t say is how hard I’m struggling.

Early on I was so guilty of trying to save everyone. It never worked because that isn’t my job, and my health took a hit. A friend said, “Keep it up and it will kill you.” I have to hand the burdens over to Jesus. He fights for me. For the women I pray for. Not only does it have to be enough, it IS enough.

This year, even with that wisdom, I have been overcome with how unequipped I am. I battle guilt. I want to have the answers, the resources, the magic wand when they reach out to me. But the call isn’t any of those things. I’m only to pray and say as I feel I’m supposed to.

And guess what?

The silence is deafening.

He doesn’t want me to do a lot of talking right now.

In its wake, come the taunts. It’s not God’s voice and it isn’t mine. It’s the true defeated one, the one with so limited resources that he’s trying to convince me I’m the defeated one.

And it is a battle, my friends.

The hourly taunts drive me to prayer.

The hourly taunts drive me to prayer.

Surrendering not to the defeat but the taunts is draining. I’m a girl that wants to know why, and often with this prayer thing comes two things I hate and grieve, and deal with often. Loneliness and rejection.

Those things have been so intense this year I’ve thrown myself on the ground and just cried it out. I’ve realized there is power in tears, those are prayers that transcend language and I’ve got to get it out.

But it takes a lot out of me.

And once it subsides, I want to process it. Is it something I’m going through for my own life, something within our family? Because this has been a year I feel like those are critical prayers where my voice is the only one. Is it for those I’m standing in the gap for? Because never before have I had so many women coming at once with heartbreaking needs that hurt to hear. I hate hearing women are hurting. I see so much potential and most of these situations are strong women believing maybe not today, but someday they won’t just survive, but thrive. If I have to go through the valley for them, I’d do it. But not knowing the why I am having these times is hard.

Trust me, there is a lot of good stuff going on. We pressed in hard for our son to find steady employment and gradate from high school. The Lord gave us a picture of what his life looks like to Him and it is happening. It’s a beautiful thing. Our daughter is enjoying a good stretch of health after a rough spring. I’m finally okay with my husband’s job change and working from home. There are two books out with my name on the front that God is using to speak to women. Those are amazing praises.

But I’m the one that vowed to talk about surrender and make sure before I challenge anyone else, I’m doing it first. To be authentic even if no one else wants to hear it, or understand. So here I am. Maybe I’m waving in your imagination. Maybe I’m collapsed on a rug with a mouth full of chocolate and tears. Whatever you see, I’m all in.

And by faith, I have to believe that’s got the gates of hell shaking.

Book Review: The Life We Never Expected by Andrew and Rachel Wilson

The Life We Never Expected by Andrew and Rachel Wilson

The Life We Never Expected by Andrew and Rachel Wilson


What do you do when hard or painful circumstances turn your world upside down, resulting in a life you never expected? Andrew and Rachel Wilson grappled with this question after both of their children were diagnosed with regressive autism. Refreshingly honest, this book explores the highs and lows of raising children with specials needs, reflecting on the broader question of how to cope with suffering of all kinds. Sharing personal stories from their lives and encouragement rooted in the truth of God’s Word, Andrew and Rachel highlight lessons they’ve learned related to fighting for joy and thriving in the midst of trials—ultimately pointing readers to Christ, the One who promises to make all things new.

The book starts out with transparency as Rachel shares their vacation experience. With each mishap and missed injury or worse, Rachel reminds herself to breathe. With that honesty, I’m captivated and I join her and her husband as they share their story. They have two children with special needs. They use their own stories, great visuals (I love explaining their situation is like receiving an orange for dessert when everyone else gets chocolate,) Scripture and thoughts that provoke the reader beyond the last page.

They are upfront that although their story is about their children, the book is for anyone looking for hope, and I believe that. It was easy to partner with their story and find the hope to cling to. When they admitted this is the book they needed, I agree with them. When our daughter was first diagnosed with special needs, I saw a lot of academic type books, but none that addressed the million thoughts I had racing in every direction at all times. Although I’m a few years past that time, I still found the book refreshing. I felt less alone.

I absolutely recommend THE LIFE WE NEVER EXPECTED. In fact, I have one to give away (please remember if you comment, leave an email where I can reach you.) Please tell me why you should have this book. I’ll pick a winner July 5th.

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COTT: Vote for Your Favorite Read

Welcome to summer!

Scroll through these FIVE new reads and vote below
for which you’d pick up first to take to the poolside.
It’ll be a tough choice! But somebody’s gotta do it. May as well be
Finders Keepers by Sarah MonzonSummer Arnet will go anywhere to capture the perfect shot that will get her
marine photography noticed by the prestigious nature magazine, Our
World—even diving in waters haunted by great white sharks. When a treasure
hunter with a ladies’-man reputation approaches her about a sunken ship at
one of her dive locations, it may be the chance she’s been looking for to
launch her career…if his charming smile doesn’t derail her first.

Resilience by L.R. BurkardIn this spell-binding sequel to the post-apocalyptic thriller PULSE,
L.R.Burkard takes readers into a landscape where teens shoulder rifles
instead of school books, and where survival might mean becoming your own
worst enemy.

A Matter of Courage by Wendy HolleyAbused by her famous husband, Irene Brennan is forced to flee to a small
town in Montana, leaving everything behind. Trent is used to protecting
wild animals from careless hunters, but can he protect Irene from her crazy

Astray (Ariboslia Book 1) by J. F. RogersTroubled-teen, Fallon finds hope and family through an unwanted prophecy.
In her travels, she learns about the One True God and how desperately she
needs Him. Perhaps, with His help, she’ll find the way to fulfill her

Her One and Only by Becky WadeWhen NFL super star Gray Fowler is threatened by a stalker, his team hires
a professional bodyguard to ensure his safety. But when Gray’s “protection”
turns out to be a woman half his size, he’s indignant. Will Dru Porter–a
former Marine and expert markswoman–prove herself worthy of the job? And
meanwhile, who’s going to guard Gray’s heart?



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Surrender to Peace by Rose Allen McCauley

Surrender to Peace by Rose Allen McCauley

Surrender to Peace is the title of my latest contemporary romance set in lovely Puerto Rico, and it is also something I think Christ taught all Christians to do when he said to “take up your cross daily.” This quote is mentioned in three of the four gospels, so I think it is definitely something Christ wants us to emulate. Just as Jesus prayed, “Not my will, but Thine” in the Garden before he left to be tried and nailed to a cross, (Matt. 26:39) we all need to give up our own wills to the Father in all things.

At the beginning of the story, my character, Joy Worth, has just flown to Puerto Rico on her “un-honeymoon” after she was jilted a week before her wedding. As she has more time to think and pray in this tropical paradise, she comes to realize she stopped listening to God’s Spirit months before when she became engaged to a guy who wouldn’t even go to church with her. Was that the turning point in her relationship with God? She spends her time touring the lovely island and reading her Bible and praying to hear His Voice again.

I hope you will read the rest of the story to find out her journey to surrender. And to learn more about this beautiful island which is an American commonwealth. Some of the reviewers have said they felt like they were touring the island with Joy and Benigno, her Christian guide.

Happy reading, and happy surrender because that is the only way to be truly happy!


Surrender to Peace

About Surrender to Peace:

Joy Worth arrives in Puerto Rico on her honeymoon trip–without her ex-fiancé. On a tour, she meets Park Ranger Benigno Arroyo.
On several more outings, he shows her the joy of living through the beauty of his beloved island. She begins to hear God’s voice again.
Joy so loves the island she decides to stay. Benigno falls in love with Joy but realizes her pain is still fresh. Joy loves him but doubts her judgment.
Can Benigno Cook earn her trust and love while helping her learn to hear God’s still, quiet voice again?

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COTT: Bitterroot Bride by Angela Breidenbach


beautifully spun story about the power of second chances.
~ Amazon
I loved The Bitterroot Bride! The part where she compares
to riding a trot made me laugh out loud. ~A.

About the book:
No one knows the real Emmalee Warren, just what they want from the infamous
prostitute. Men are coming out of the woodwork to stake a claim on the
miner’s widow. They wanted her body before. Now they want her money. Hiring
a lawyer, Richard Lewis, to save her from financial ruin might let her
start over where no one knows Miss Ellie. Becoming an unknown is the only
way to freedom…or is it? Can she leave her past and build a new
Chat with Angela:
Ques: We heard there was something special that happened to you
while writing your fourth book in the historical romance series, Montana
Beginnings. What was special about the Bitterroot Bride heroine for
Angela: Writing Miss Emmie learning to read became an amazing
experience. Though I’d learned to read at four, I didn’t understand how to
connect and read people until well into my adulthood. So while Miss Emmie
became proficient in reading, I became proficient in relationships. She’d
eat up every book she could get her hands on and studied with intensity. I
did the same thing, but about relational topics.
Ques: When did you realize the parallel character arc had so much in
common with your real life?
Angela: About halfway through the first draft an epiphany happened.
I stopped, took a day or so to really think about my personal experience,
then began an intentional focus on writing the emotional parallel.
Ques: What do you hope Bitterroot Bride does for readers?
Angela: I hope this story is both entertaining and encouraging. I’d
like readers to absorb the idea that like Miss Emmie and me, if you have
the desire to learn something then you can. Age doesn’t matter.
Ques: Can you tell us the titles and a little about the Montana
Beginnings series?
Angela: All four titles are set in Helena, MT from 1889 – 1895. It’s
right when we became a state, but mining couldn’t support us forever. The
Debutante Queen introduces us to Calista who steals an orphan off the
street to protect her from a cruel master. Eleven Pipers Piping brings
forward the newsies, newspaper boys and orphan train leftovers, into
Mirielle’s classroom. Then in Taking the Plunge, Delphina takes us back to
the iconic Broadwater Natatorium as a swim instructress. Then Emmalee
enters the scene as we find out how Montana chose her state flower. Each of
these lovely Victorian ladies finds her true love while carving out a
meaningful life in Montana’s frontier.
About Angela:
Angela Breidenbach is a bestselling author and host of
Grace Under Pressure Radio on iTunes. Angela is the Christian Author
Network’s president. And yes, she’s half of the comedy duo, Muse and
Writer, on social media.
Connect Here:
Twitter/Instagram/Pinterest: @AngBreidenbach
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