The Toxic Train of Unforgiveness

Julie’s Note: I can’t believe it, but I have over 2100 posts on this site since 2011. I’ve blogged longer than that, but that’s what I’ve been able to save at this domain I know readers come and go, so I thought here and there I’d share some of those first posts, revised a little. This is from February 2011. Enjoy!

I’ve blogged about this before but on the other server that I had to erase previous posts. I think it’s worth revisiting.

Last year I struggled with letting go. No matter the promises made to me I was just certain my life was nothing more than Charlie Brown and his football around Lucy.

After I finished the National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) in November I treated myself to the movie, Unstoppable.  This is the Denzel movie about the unmanned train threatening Pennsylvania towns. I was on the edge of my seat enjoying the drama and suspense when God in His loving way whispered something in my ear.

“This is what unforgiveness looks like to Me.”

I watched the train pick up speed loaded with toxic cargo. Without intervention the train had all power to inflict damage.

I realized how powerful the Holy inspired statement truly was. My fear and refusal to let go and truly forgive was the same as giving an unmanned train filled with chemicals acceleration. The damage had potential to be widespread and poisonous. It was an image I couldn’t let go, even after the credits rolled and the movie ended.

I can say a few months past this I feel the blessings and joy of obedience. Letting go of my fears and hurt was scary but far safer than giving access to the equivalent of a speeding out of control locomotive.

How about you?

Have you ever struggled with forgiving and letting go? Does the image of an accelerating  unmanned train filled with toxic cargo remind you of unforgiveness?

Can I be honest?

It’s the image God sees.