Behind the Veil
It’s hard to believe, but the fall semester has started for our son and our daughter has a week left before she starts high school. Things are slowing down for me travel and appointment wise, and I believe beyond fall, I’m entering a new season.
Years ago I attended an “Esther Experience,” a journey through the book of Esther that was very hands-on and simply beautiful. The church that hosted it transformed their sanctuary each week to the particular theme of that chapter and as a visual learner, it was breathtaking.
One week it was the King’s chambers. We were invited to go forward and spend our time in prayer, which I did. However, I stopped short of the chambers. There was a veil, and I didn’t pass through. That was when I felt a nudge from the Holy Spirit.
I do a wonderful time leading everyone else to deeper relationship with Jesus, taking them beyond the veil, but I stay back for myself.
It shocked me because it was the absolute truth. Like school, I treated faith with what I could get by on. I longed to take things to a deeper level, but instead made sure everyone else I encouraged and prayed for got there first. When it was my turn, I lolly-gagged, spending more time on Facebook than in the Bible. Throwing up quick “Help me, Jesus” prayers instead of intimate conversations or times of listening that I had gained so much from in earlier times.
I’m sensing almost a magnet like sensation drawing me to go behind the veil. When I am home, I have three studies I’m going through. What I find awesome is I didn’t start them at the same time or spend a lot of time processing why those ones. As I’m reading, they connect like a beautiful puzzle. I am learning things about Jesus I didn’t know. (Adamant talks about how Jesus is the stone. The Rock, the Road and the Rabbi shares how the translation for carpenter isn’t what we think. Because Israel doesn’t have a lot of trees, but stone, the term builder in Jesus time probably meant he wasn’t a carpenter. But a—stone mason.
Blew. Me. Away.
Adamant and The Rock, the Road and the Rabbi opened my eyes to a new understanding of Christ. The verse how Jesus is the cornerstone? That makes so much more sense. To add Leaving Ordinary and learning about the tabernacle and the history, it’s been a lot of deep reading and so much listening and journaling.
Something new that makes me know I’m finally going behind the veil.
I also returned to my favorite non fiction book apart from the Bible, Bob Sorge’s Secret of the Secret Place. This is a book I drink in, highlight something new every time I read it. Again, because of where God has me right now, my eyes are opening to so much that I haven’t seen before.
I’ve been around enough to know as cliched as it is, “new level, new devil.” I don’t know what this season will look like, how long it will last, or what I’m meant to walk away with. I do know it’s preparation, nothing I’ve learned has gone to waste. I know the call on my life and I feel increased urgency to pray that global vision He has given me to pray and encourage women to find freedom through surrender in Christ.
I also feel a pull to share more here. I’m not sure why, but I’ll post as I feel I’m supposed to.
Don’t get me wrong, as serious as these topics seem, I’m still me. I love reading and learning. Prayer and faith are my core. But I still have sass. I’m trying to get the healthiest curls out of my menopause hair. I consider another huge achievement this summer that I’m closing in on watching the Marvel movies in order. So who knows what my posts will be like.
But here I am.
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