An Act of Surrender
My husband and I both loved children and planned that we would carry on the Mowery tradition of five. When we decided to start trying to begin our family, I struggled and found that I had infertility issues.
Depression set in and even bitterness when I would see women and girls in unplanned pregnancies. My husband and I would provide a home full of love and a mother and father who had planned for the baby’s arrival.
I was finally able to conceive and have one daughter. But I still held ill feelings as I struggled once again to give my little one a brother or a sister. It never happened. My wise husband said that obviously we had what God wanted for us.
I did fill that baby void with caring for children in my home. This was a blessing to the parents to have a safe and caring place for their little ones. It also blessed us to provide this for the parents and the babies.
Later when my daughter was in her high school years, I was approached by a woman in our church association who runs the local pregnancy center. She wanted me to become the devotional leader for their Thursday evening classes. I told her I needed to think and pray about this.
I went to God with an attitude of “I can’t possibly do this with my history.” God had other plans. I surrendered to His nudging.
For about two years I would deliver the devotion to the girls on their Thursday evening classes. As each girl related her story, those past feelings melted away. I felt honored and humbled that God would use me to share His unconditional love with them. They deserved it.
I’m so glad God nudged me into surrendering to do something I never thought I would do. But as God forgave my former bitter feelings, those girls brought healing for me.
Julie’s Note: Paula and I both shared our infertility journeys with four other authors in the book, A WALK IN THE VALLEY. It is in a workbook format so readers can journal their personal thoughts as they read along. If you know anyone with infertility and/or miscarriage history, PLEASE purchase this book for them. It is not about making money, trust me. We want to see women healed as Paula shares above.
Paula is a pastor’s wife, mom to a college student, author, acquiring editor, and speaker. No matter the hat she wears, she strives to honor God’s plan even if it means going out on a limb and leaving comfort zones. Reviewers have characterized her writing as “thundering with emotion.” Her book, Be The Blessing, won the 2014 Selah Award in the novella category. Paula enjoys reading and reviewing Christian fiction, writing Christian romance and devotionals, and helping other authors realize their dream of publication.
You can follow Paula at www.facebook.com/pages/Paula-Mowery/175869562589187. Learn more about Paula at her blog at www.paulamowery.blogspot.com
THE CRUX OF HONOR
Chelsea Wilson’s life is a constant reminder of what living dishonorably looks like. At every turn she continues to prove her mother’s shunning must be deserved.
Dr. Kevin Alley returns to the old home place to establish his medical practice. After running into Chelsea, he knows his love for her is still strong.
Chelsea is ousted from her small rented room when her mother bursts in, proclaiming Chelsea’s pregnancy.
Kevin takes Chelsea in, giving her space to live on the upper level of his house.
When Chelsea’s baby displays life-threatening symptoms, Chelsea must face her mother. Secrets unfold about Chelsea’s parents. Can Chelsea and Kevin uncover the secrets linked to Amish heritage in time to save the baby? Can the two find love together despite their history?
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