Character Confession: Because Jealousy Doesn’t Look that Good On Me

It’s my Saturday Character Confession. I could post 10 graphics today.

1. Smallville finale was last night. I’m posting ahead so I have no comment except I can tell you I sobbed. There is no bigger Superman geek than this girl.

2. A new show I thought was really sharp with writing and acting was canceled before it had a chance.  Fox slaughtered about 6 shows off the schedule and my Breaking In was one of them.

3. I just plain feel lousy. I most likely overdid it and pulled something in my recovery. I believe fun hormonal issues are switching it up and I’m not sleeping well at all. I’m hungry a lot. I’m a bucket of tears for no reason. I see the doctor for laparoscopy follow up and I’ll bring it up.  If not I’m sure my family will call ahead before I get there.

But with that whining, here is a character confession you probably can relate to.

I love encouraging people. I’m thrilled to be this little library of info that if someone has a need, I can most of the time point them to the person, place, organization or verse to help them. I noticed it early on but it didn’t really get to me but it is happening more and more. I’m making up these examples but you’ll get the hint.

I show someone the Bible study to help them surrender an issue and they call me back two months later 80 pounds lighter while I gained.

I point an interested writer to the resources that I believe in and wish them well. They write me 6 months later to let me know they signed a 10 book deal.

I help someone with a resume or a speech and learn they performed so well for their presentation they are going to be the VP of the entire place or be the newest member of the Women of Faith team.

Remember, I’m making these examples up but to a very small degree, these kinds of things happen to me.

Lately it’s been dogging me.  The little voice I shouldn’t even be entertaining has made it clear in the wedding of life I’m nothing more than a bridesmaid and that is all I’ll ever be.

But God.

Even if that is true, that’s where God wants me and I don’t want to live an inch apart from His will. I’m not someone who wakes up wanting to have a best seller, I just want to write. So why I even entertained getting all ruffled when those I interacted with me had their dream fulfilled is kind of goofy on my part.

This bridesmaid gets to make sure the bride looks great and has a wonderful start to her new life.  That’s a good gig.

Jealous doesn’t look that great on me.

But being truly happy for others does.

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