Character Confession: Frustrated
It’s Character Confession day courtesy of Noelle Mena and Pliable in His Hands.
I chose frustrated for a lack of a better word. I’m not bitter, not yet. Increasing chronic pain condition wasn’t a choice. So frustration it is.
I’m fighting and last week losing the battle to feel sorry for myself. I’ve dealt with PCOS issues including pelvic pain, infertility, hormonal imbalance and early menopause symptoms for years. Things probably started when I was 13, but I didn’t receive a diagnosis until I was 25. A hysterectomy two years ago brought full menopause to the front burner but it relieved so many other things the surgery was a welcome relief.
Tuesday I see the doctor. It’s time and my mom gave me our specific cancer history and I realized I need to be on the ball with medical issues. I’m also dealing with the return of pelvic pain. Cramping. Stomach bloating and tenderness. Hormone changes. Hot flashes are back.
I read too many Caring Bridge pages to know life isn’t fair and there are people who suffer more than I do and no one, not one deserves that kind of pain. Yet I’m human. I have a big threshold for discomfort and the pain is constant. It gets old.
My prayer is Tuesday I receive clear direction and information. Ultimately I’d like a full endocrine consult.
So…frustrated. I guess that fits.
How are you feeling today?
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I invite you to join me Monday right here as I’m one of the blog stops for Lysa TerKeurst’s bestselling Made to Crave book and DVD. I’m here every day (more or less) but wanted you to know about Monday.
